call me crazy

I've been feeling disconnected lately. I have no idea what I want to do with my life (still) and that worries me now, since it's time to start thinking about that. My main frustration lately has been this weird funk I've been in.

I think it stems from feeling out of place. Recently I've been acting like I used to when I was less confident. I've been feeling like doing nothing more and more. It's because, I think, I don't really feel at home anywhere anymore. My social life and my home are still back in Erie, but my "career," daily life, classes, everything are at State right now. No matter where I am, I feel like I'm only visiting.

I just need a change. I know that I'm holding myself back in some way - I need to figure out how and why. I want to feel at home here. I went home for last weekend and then went to the Ledges. Going to the festival was probably what I needed - going somewhere completely foreign and still having a good time. This week, I've been feeling a lot more content with my situation.